At any time, Life offers us an opportunity to open our consciousness and broaden our vision, allowing us to grow. Let me tell you about my experience this morning.
Several weeks ago, a person had contacted me by email and wrote: "Marushka, I feel lost, I need you to help me find myself". After various exchanges of messages, this gentleman ended up taking an appointment for a 4-hour session in nature, during which I intended to transmit shamanic techniques to allowing him to find himself while acquiring more autonomy. We agreed on a date, a schedule and a place to meet.
This morning, therefore, I went to the appointment, constantly repeating to my assistant: "This man is not ready. He would consciously find himself back, but he still hesitates. He won't come". We waited half an hour and he didn't come.
Back home, I turn on my computer and check my mailbox. I discover a message that had been sent to me at 10:03: "Marushka, I will be there in 30 minutes". However, we had an appointment at 9:45. I replied to this person and received a second message: "I can’t find our meeting place". I answered a second time before closing my mailbox for the day.
This short adventure illustrates perfectly the inner state that this gentleman lives in and of which he is aware as he admits to being lost. The next step would be to observe how the fact of being lost affects his daily life. In today example, this man goes to an appointment without having previously inquired about the situation of the place where he was to go. So he misses his appointment and I imagine that his daily life is currently punctuated by various other missed acts.
When we experience the feeling of being lost, this perdition manifests on the outside and nothing seems to work in our life. We are no longer connected to our inner compass and we are exhausted in trying to concretely manifest objectives that are not based on any of our internal foundations.
Observing allows us to take note of what is happening and offers us the opportunity for real change. There’s nothing to look for, because it’s already there. When we are in search of a purpose, we focus on it and make ourselves unavailable for all the other daily teachings. To find oneself, to find oneself back, begins already by observing oneself.