I journey through the snail shell to explore my physical body with the intention of getting to know it better.
As I enter the shell, a word appears: CIRCUMVOLUTION. I quickly turn away from the main track and take a secondary one. I feel that my face is changing: my eyes are stretching towards the sides of my skull while horns seem to grow on the top of my head and my forehead is projected forward. I saw the beginning of a metamorphosis and the image of a bull imposed itself on me.
I am now back on the main track, in the snail shell, and I discover another Me lurking in the back of the passage. This other Me is folded on the ground, in fetal position and I feel it is scared, frightened. This woman has an ethereal, ghostly appearance. I go to her in order to appease her, but once I reach her, I find only one skeleton, my skeleton.
I continue my way and cross a long tunnel whit a all white exit. The tunnel is narrower and narrower and I dive in head first, then I turn into an arrow point and land on the white surface I saw earlier. It’s fluffy and reminds me of the consistency of a marshmallow or a mushroom. I bend over and discover that I am actually sitting on the head of a Paris mushroom. All around me, many other mushrooms, as in cultivation. I also observe that I am in a dark, circular cave and when I raise my head and look up, I see that there are stone arcades under which a yellowish light shines. I’m in the centre of the cave, down below, and I’m watching movements under the arcades. People are walking there.
My breathing is speeding up, my left arm and my eyes are moving as I find myself thrown under the arcades among these people who walk without stopping. All of these people are wearing brown gowns. Their faces are bent down and covered by a wide hood. I deduce that they are Franciscan monks. I want to see their faces, but ignoring what I will find under the hood, I feel a certain apprehension. I end up making up my mind and rushing in front of one of them and then I stop, firmly encased on my legs. The man also stops, facing me, raises his head and looks at me with indifference. His hood fell backwards and I can clearly see his face. He is about 50 years old, his hair and short beard are pepper and salt. I do not know why I still feel the same apprehension, his face is nothing scary and as I make this thought, he puts on his hood, skirts me and continues his circular walk under the arcades.
I sit on a wooden bench, set along the stone wall, and I look around. Under the arcades, openings closed by thick wrought iron railings lead to other arcades, to infinity. I turn my attention to the monks who wander in silence and I observe that they are more and more numerous. They’re all the same and make me think of clones. I feel tense, impatient, an animal growl rises from my throat and then comes anger and aggression. I set out among these men who paid no attention to me and camped against them to try again to stop one. I then discover with amazement that they pass through me as would ghosts encountering any obstacle. Emotions and feelings mingle in me: fear, rage, hatred, aggressiveness. Unpleasant feeling, but now the drum sounds the reminder.
I come back.
Much more powerful than an energetic cleaning, disengagement – or release – is a basic ritual whose purpose is to expel an energy – or entity – that has taken possession of its victim (human, animal, herd, place). Common practice in shamanism, disengagement is often understood as a synonym of exorcism. If these two procedures are very close, let us remember, however, that exorcism systematically calls for a religious egregore and let us also remember that shamanism is not a religion.
Most of the disengagements are carried out by lead, a practice well known in the East since antiquity. This metal combines two distant forces: the internal fire energizing and the rigid heaviness. Often used to make amulets or elaborate esoteric rituals, covering the costume of the Siberian shaman, lead makes it possible to facilitate contact with the different levels of the subconscient also called "lower world".
But in extreme cases, a fire release may be essential. This type of clearance is not without danger and only an experienced practitioner is able to drive it, because this practice can be detrimental as much for the officiant as for his client and the entourage of the latter. The well-structured action of such a ritual – specific incantations, objects used, etc. – and the experience of the shaman are the only guarantors to really deliver the victim of his troubles and evils and to allow him to find or regain the physical and mental balance at the base of a harmonious life.
When performed alone, the release has only a curative effect. To avoid any subsequent attack and nuisance, a second ritual – this time of protection – must follow the first one. So be sure to speak to the right person if you think you need to disengage and understand that such a ritual is done exclusively in person and not online.
Some anthropologists argue that original shamans were women, long before men were initiated. This may be explained by the fact that a woman, because of her sensitivity, has a more intuitive perception, less rationalized than a man. In some tribes, however, and all over the world, women no longer have the right to express their true power. The mystery the woman embodies still and always seems to frighten the ancient man. And this is still happening in 2021, in the West.
The mental is never far away, nourished by hidden emotions not yet known and/or recognized. It is therefore essential to express these emotions so that the energy of Life can again flow freely within us and around us. The old behaviours are still often, and very unconsciously, repeated by both women and men. Women still tend to submit or vice versa to submit the man while he is divided between understanding the woman and submitting her, as he has done for millennia.
When will we finally integrate, beyond the fine discourses derived from the theories of the mental, that women and men are perfectly complementary, that the competences of both have the same value? When will we finally walk, work together, one with the other and not one against the other, animated by our respective fears? When will we finally understand that duality, that our differences are an engine and not an obstacle?
Let us look around us and especially in ourselves. Let us see with the eyes of the soul and perceive the veils of our own illusions. We are all human, we are all on the way and above all, let us see what is, without judgment or expectation in order to continue to trance-form ourselves so that, when the time comes, transmutation, alchemy operates in us...
According to Traditional Chinese Medicine, Fear is the Mother of all emotions, that is to say that we enter into reaction to an external event because a fear has been, even very unconsciously, felt.
Fear is therefore an engine since it makes us react.
BUT... if we react, we are no longer the active actor of our life and we then become a passive spectator or a sheep. Fear takes us in, blinds us and tossed by it, we let ourselves be guided by any shepherd.
Fear, Mother of all emotions, will express itself in different ways according to the dominant energy that each unconsciously carries in him. Some will express anger and if anger swells without being controlled, it will become hatred. Others will express sadness and if the sadness swells without being controlled, it will become melancholy. Still others will express joy and if the joy swells without being controlled, it will become hysteria. The latter will finally express indifference and the belief that they feel no emotion, those are the ones who are afraid of being afraid and who choose to disembowel themselves by imagining that they will not suffer. These are the ones whose mind is in control and they then experience the painful experience of obsessive thoughts.
I am your pillar, without me you collapse
You are my Sun, without you I go out
After crossing our shadows
We’re finally together again.
I soothe you and you feed
You raise me up, so I grow up
After living our lives
We’re coming to heaven.
I admire and desire you
You protect and honor me
After the worst of it
We love each other even more.
My King, my Wolf
I now confess it
Love and Joy
Are inside me again.
Marushka - 11th March 2013
(translated from French)
I go to the lower world to meet the spirit of a former shaman from the region where I live (this journey dates back several years).
I am in nature, the sky is bright, no wind, no noise. My feet rest on a ground strewn with clumps of grass. A shadow comes towards me. My brain sends me the thought of an Amerindian woman and the shadow disappears immediately. I then feel guided and begin to move forward. I observe that everything around me has become frozen and I head for an ice cave. I do not feel the cold and enter the cavity. Everything is clear inside and I see it as in broad daylight.
In front of me, on a wall, I guess the body of a prehistoric man, coarsely dressed in a beast skin, his face covered by a dark beard, a long stick of wood in his right hand. He is frozen, as if caught in the ice. Intrigued, I approach and the man immediately sets in motion. I then understand that he is not frozen, but free behind the thick translucent wall that separates us. He is indeed alive. His features are not sharp, distorted by the icy diaper, but I feel anger emanating from him. I ask him if he is a former shaman and see him agitating. I feel like he’s getting mad. I ask him his name. I feel an answer, letters are written in capital letters before my eyes while I hear the word. The man moves more and more and now seems to be shouting. It seems he wants to tell me something, but I don’t hear his words.
Then I find myself with a spike in my hand and I start breaking the ice that separates us. The thick layer resists and it takes a lot of strength and perseverance for a weak hollow to begin to appear. Meanwhile, the man starts to calm down and watches me do it. I’m exhausted and crying with rage, because I can’t break the thickness of the wall and then, suddenly, a tiny hole appears, a hole that runs through all the ice. On his side, the man crouches down and places his mouth in front of the orifice. I imitate him, crouch down, place my mouth on my side of the hole and close my eyes. The shaman pronounces his name and I feel his breath on my face.
When I open my eyelids, I see him straighten up and away. I get up and start to leave the cavity. Everywhere around me floats the image of the shaman, on the walls, the ceiling, behind the ice wall of the cave. When I am out again, I feel his presence behind me as if he were floating slightly above my shoulders, without touching me. I laugh and talk to him, he listens to me and remains silent.
I thank and come back.
At all times and in all places, humans have constantly surrounded themselves with objects to which they have lent and still lend magical powers. The list is numerous: gri-gri, talisman, amulet, stone, crystal, wand, pentacle, anthropomorphic or zoomorphic statuettes ... There are as many objects with sacred powers as there are civilizations.
When it is made by a shaman, a sorcerer or a magician, the object is then sacred, that is to say charged and invested with a precise intention, a particular energy, favorable for its owner.
Starting from the postulate that everything is energy, the power emitted by an object exceeds the simple placebo effect for the following reasons: - any object, organism, substance, by its atomic nature, constantly emits quantifiable (measurable) frequencies (frequency signatures), among others in the electromagnetic spectrum; - a magnetic field, a bombardment of particles, any energy modification (such as heat) modifies all these objects and their spectral signatures. This is also quantifiable. Therefore, the energetic charge carried out by a shaman, sorcerer or magician makes a modification to the object and this modification is, again, measurable.
Besides the energetic influence of an object, the belief of the one who wears and uses it will consolidate and / or modify his neurological paths, thus influencing the functions of his organism, his attitudes, his behavior and consequently his environment.
Text by Aonghas von Rycker, astrophysicist
Photo : two-headed voodoo dool crafted by Marushka Tziroulnikoff
In some shamanic traditions – as in South America, for example – it is customary to receive the teaching of master plants. This approach has a sacred meaning and is therefore not taken lightly. To be prepared for it, the apprentice must undertake a diet. The diet is also a common practice of the shamanic path and therefore does not apply only to the encounter with plants.
Diet itself is a serious practice and you will be well advised to consult your doctor before starting one. Similarly, if you are dying for the very first time, I strongly recommend that you have on your side someone who has already experienced the process.
The purpose of the diet is to cleanse your whole body in order to rid it of accumulated toxins, it will then act on the physical as well as on the emotional and the mental.
Most practitioners of the shamanic diet spread out the suppression of so-called «exciting» foods over a week. Personally, the very first time I dieted, I gave myself a month, and I confess that it was easy. I took out the food gently, one after the other, and I didn’t have any unpleasant symptoms related to body detoxification. During this period, to support me and give me every chance to succeed, I practiced yoga several times a day, two solitary walks in the nature (1h30 per walk) and shamanic journeys. My diet was followed by a 7-day fast and the food recovery was also spread over a period of one month.
So what are these famous "exciting" or acidifying foods that poison us when we consume them on a daily basis and often more than for good reason? Here is the short list:
In addition to food that acidifies the body, a diet is also practiced by completely eliminating smoking and all that is smoked, any sexual activity (masturbation included) and any drug use in any form. If you are on medication, consult your doctor who is and remains the only health professional authorized to advise you.
As stated above, the purpose of the diet is to remove from your body everything that stresses it and as any change inevitably leads to stress, it is also recommended to soften this change by practicing light and regular outdoor physical activity such as walking or yoga. The basic mistake would be to believe that because you absorb fewer calories, your body will be weakened. To compensate for the reduction of a dietary energy intake, it is essential that your body remains in motion and "feeds" air and light. Of course, if you can walk in nature rather than in the city or in the metro, you will have understood that it will be highly beneficial for you. On the other hand, since the shamanic diet is essentially spiritual, the practice of altered states of consciousness is therefore welcome: meditation, shamanic journey, visualization, sophrology…
Enjoy your practice!
Do you hear their castrating speeches?
Do you see their disapproving looks?
They say you’re an animal, be proud, because you know
No wild beast subject nature to its will
No beasts saw the branch that has always carried it
Stop to endure
Leave them to their projections
And other dithering
Stop lying to you
They will never give you
Sing, dance and shout
Move, love and pray
And if everything suddenly stops
You would still welcome death laughing
Marushka - 24th June 2021
(translated from French)
drawing: "Shapeshifter" by bonegoddess, deviant artist, USA
In life, you know that nothing is all white or all black, nothing is all positive or all negative. Between these two extremes is the centre, the one that allows us to take reality into account in order to concretely materialize our dreams. This June’s Full Moon, in the Cancer – Capricorn axis, offers us the opportunity to lay a whole new foundation for a whole new way of life.
It’s stills brewing. Everywhere, the emotional tensions are still going up a notch. People who had always kept everything under control are themselves surprised to climb into the towers for things they would usually let go. Others observe that memories that have been hidden since early childhood are rising to the surface of their consciousness and then wonder what they might do with them, especially when these memories convey traumatic charges that are at the origin of all the unconscious behaviour of the individual.
A liberation, THE liberation is ongoing then why seek to stem the flow? The time has come to free oneself and then be able to move on to something else rather than remain stuck indefinitely in an irremediably past.
The current situation is not favourable for long-term projects, but rather emphasizes the complete destruction of the old structures, the ones on which we have built our personality, but also on the structures on which our society rests, for let us remember that this humans who make society. Each of us is therefore fully responsible for the world in which we live.
The Full Moon in Capricorn therefore invites us to withdraw into oneself in order to reflect on one’s life, on one’s desires, on those that are achievable and those that are definitely not. Since everything is turned upside down, since we are given the opportunity to do otherwise, what do we want to do? For us, for the society?
Sign of Earth, Capricorn is serious, pragmatic, concrete and realistic, it needs security, effort and success, in the incarnation. With the Sun and Mars opposite, in Cancer, the need for sweetness brings a little delicacy to introspection.
If you feel joyful, let yourself slip into the realism of Capricorn to sow your joy in your daily life. If you feel rather serious, let yourself be carried away a little in the faith of Cancer to avoid sinking into discouragement in the face of the magnitude of the task.
Balance is at the centre.